It's been years since I had any first day of work jitters.
Almost 14 years, to be exact.
But tonight, my stomach is in a knot. My mind is racing.
"Did I make the right decision?"
"Will I like this new job?"
"Will I be any good at this new job?"
It's weird. I've been ready for this day for more than a month, yet it feels like it came out of nowhere. So many times today I caught myself thinking about what story I was going to do tomorrow. I even panicked for a moment when I realized I didn't have anything lined up. And I even thought about making some banana bread to take to work tomorrow.
Then I realized work is now a completely different place, doing a completely different job, working with completely different people.
That's when I freaked out a little.
Just a little.
I'm good now and ready, excited actually, to begin this new adventure. Change is good. It's sometimes easier to stay in a "comfortable" routine, rather than make a change that might actually be just what you've been looking for.
So, to those first day jitters, I say "get lost".
And to this new chapter in my life, this new adventure, these new challenges, I say: "Bring it on."
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Now, it's back to reality.
As happy as I was to see the kids, I secretly kind of wished I'd have a day to catch up on sleep and unwind before diving back into motherhood.
I immediately jumped back into the "mom" duties of cooking, washing dishes, doing laundry, giving baths and getting the kids to bed.